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What If? 
Written By: 
Mark Harrier 
and Ron Heagy 
 
 
At the end of Robert Altman’s 1972 film, NASHVILLE, a 
disturbed young man makes his way through the crowd at a 
presidential campaign rally and approaches the stage, where 
the candidate is watching a beautiful country singer 
perform for his supporters. The young “assassin” pulls out 
a gun, aims it at the stage and fires with precision, 
killing the singer instantly. Moviegoers and critics alike 
were outraged, asking Altman the question, “Why in the 
world did she have to die? Why didn’t he shoot the 
candidate?” Altman replied that the nature of their 
question was exactly the point he was making, that we as a 
society had become so desensitized to political 
assassination; it had become an acceptable expectation. We 
were outraged at the murder of the singer, but thought the 
murder of a political leader came with the job. 
 
When I recently watched the Oscar winning “Million Dollar 
Baby”, a powerful movie with its own controversial ending, 
I cried as many did. But my tears were not for the tragedy 
of the story, to which I relate on a very personal level. 
My tears were shed because we as a society have gotten it 
wrong again. Only this time, the filmmakers are not 
shedding light on the problem. They are making it worse. 
 
Many people are furious at the movie’s sympathetic 
portrayal of euthanasia, and their outrage has been 
reported in the media. Not to mention the controversial 
starvation of Terri Schiavo. (Disabled from a brain 
injury.) Many others are furious that people are 
politicizing what to them is a brave morality tale, and 
their outrage has been reported as well, perhaps even 
helping the movie to win its Oscars. But in the secondary 
debate over euthanasia, few have asked the real question, 
the one they asked Mr. Altman, “...why in the world did 
Maggie have to die?” She was not terminally ill, she was 
not brain dead, she was not in agonizing permanent pain, 
she was not in a coma for years with no real hope of 
recovering, in fact, she was not in any of the states of 
health one associates with the debate over euthanasia. Why 
did she have to die? Because Maggie was “handicapped”.  
 
And no one is outraged about that.  
 
In fact, I’m sure that almost everyone watching the movie 
never even questioned the premise. Our perception and 
prejudice as a society says that being a quadriplegic is 
certainly worse than death. As a three-sport letterman with 
a football scholarship to Oregon State, I felt the same 
way. And when I woke up in the hospital on my 18th birthday 
as a newly minted quadriplegic, courtesy of a surfing 
accident the day before, I too wanted to die. It’s a common 
emotion to have when faced with a catastrophic loss, be it 
a physical or emotional one. Million Dollar Baby gives an 
almost mythic nobility to those feelings, and “mercifully” 
grants her request to die. But is that really the message 
we want to give to our sons and daughters? That a “quad” is 
better off dead? It’s a message that some Asian societies 
are comfortable with, since they discourage their children 
from even associating with the handicapped, lest the bad 
Karma rub off on them. And it’s a message they would have 
been comfortable with in Nazi Germany. Let’s not forget 
Hitler started his “Final Solution” by exterminating the 
disabled and dysfunctional first. If our own government 
once valued intelligent, able-bodied African Americans as 
3/5ths of a full human being, what is the value we put on 
the handicapped? Ten percent? Five? Are the nearly 100,000 
quadriplegics living in our country today really better off 
dead? And what do we say to the hundreds of American GI’s 
who have suffered similar spinal and neck injuries while 
fighting in Iraq? Do we send them a copy of the movie with 
a note that reads “Thanks, soldier. Watch this and you’ll 
know what to do.”? I think not. How about giving them some 
other choices? Choices like the ones they were injured 
protecting: life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. 
 
Thank God there was no one willing to assist me when I 
wanted to die. Otherwise I would have missed out on one 
heck of an interesting life. A life full of triumphs and 
tribulations, of smart moves and stupid mistakes, love and 
heartbreak, divorce and remarriage, failures and 
achievements. In other words, a life just like yours. With 
the loving help from my family, friends, and caregivers, I 
became a college graduate, teacher, writer, businessman, 
motivational speaker, homeowner, husband, and father. I 
have accomplished more than I would have had I never been 
hurt at all. Surprisingly, my accident was not the death of 
all my hopes, it was their rebirth. And I have learned that 
birth is a lot better choice than death. I have a new baby 
myself, a baby worth a lot more than a million dollars, a 
miracle naturally conceived against all odds. If you ask 
her in a few years from now if she thinks her father should 
have killed himself, I expect she’ll say no. My wife and my 
other three daughters seem to be happy I didn’t make that 
choice. And I imagine the majority of the over two million 
people I’ve spoken to at schools, churches, and 
corporations throughout the country are glad I chose to 
stay around a while longer. 
 
In truth, we are all handicapped in some way. Mine is just 
more visible. The million dollar baby couldn’t handle hers, 
and her manager loved her enough to help her die. She got 
her wish, exiting while she could still “hear the 
applause”. Hollywood needs look no further than one of 
their own to see how hollow that notion is. Christopher 
Reeve got lots of applause playing a hero in the movies, 
but it paled in comparison to the ovations he received 
after his accident, when he became a real life hero to 
millions. When he chose life. What if Maggie’s mind 
contained a cure? Tragically we’ll never know 
 
*Please donate to my charity, Never Give Up USA, today, so 
I can help millions of teens and adults choose life! I need 
your help! 
 
Ron 
 
 
 
 
 
 
*Registered with the Writer’s Guild Association